April showers... brings May Flowers!

Alright... Obviously I stink horribly! at blogging/emails (Right Chels?) Im going to start trying HARDER on this one!

March was a pretty intense month. Except right now I cant really remember much of it! Ups, downs, and turn-arounds I suppose. BYU-Idaho got out on Friday which means Brianna left me. :( devastating to be sure. But it gives me a reason to plan a trip to Montana! Woohoo!! Okay, I am actually exciting. I hear its really pretty and lets face it- I like pretty! I guess I love traveling or something. I miss my cousin Bryce's wife Chelsea like CRAZY! When they lived here we would randomly get together and go shopping and just spend time together. But since they've moved to Seattle I hardly ever hit Target (my bank account approves though) and I miss just hanging out and having Chelsea and Ang time. Vacations to Montana and Washington this summer! Well, if I can afford it.

So, I really did mean to work out a lot. and I did! for 2 weeks... then it died miserably. I worked the late shift one night and ate an entire foot-long sub. I hadnt eaten a lot, it was 7 and I was really hungry. I love veggie sandwhiches... and got a little carried away. So, at 1030 I decided to go running. Thinking e 1/2 hours would be enough to digest enough to run. Ha. What a joke! I thought I was going to explode, implode, throw up, and die all at the same time. I ran for like 8 minutes and quit. It was honestly the WORST work out ever. At that point I lost motivation and skipped out for like a month. Im pathetic, I know. Then I started drinking Mt Dew again and well I could really care less about what I eat. Man, I suck at this plan. But I've had so many comments about how I look the past 4 days that Im going to continue on my original plan. Wish me luck!

I hate the weather here. One day its snowing like crazy, the next its all melted and 65 outside. Both of which do nothing for my allergies. I never had allergies till my sr year in high school. Now, I get itchy watery eyes, and my head feels like its going to explode about 90% of the time. Throw in PMS and I want to die. What a great week. :)

Conference was incredible. I skipped work and watched it all. Basically I dont know how anyone can live without the upliftment the GA's talk brings. I balled through the 2nd session on Sunday. Like, curled up in my down comforter alone in my basement balling my eyes out. It was fabulous. So much strength and insight. I've been listening to talks from Fall '08s conference when getting ready in the mornings and am looking forward to doing the same with this last session. I highly recommend downloading them to you iPods/cell phones/blackberrys and randomly listening to them. Honestly, its the best thing Ive ever done.

On Friday I had this impulse to run to utah. Dont ask, I get these sometimes and akbout 77% of the time I run with it. I had a hair cut/eyebrow wax at 6 at the beauty college and figured you know, an hour there and then I could make like a baby and head out. HA! Yeah, I forgot about the little fact that they have basically no idea what they're doing and that it takes forever! (remember last years hideous perm... white rods... 4 hours sitting in that darn chair) So I get home about 830, scarf down a mini pizza I bought at the gas station and about 845 I head south (much to my fathers objections about how late it was and all). I get to my cousins house about 1150. We stay up and paint nails, catch up, and make a Maverick run for the essentials, Mt Dew, twix and reeses peanut buttercups (my new obsession since the anti-sugar thing). At 930 AM I wake up and take her to work down in Draper. Annas car is a manual. Brock, my friend from my college days taught me how to drive stick back in 07. Since, I havent touched one. So of course I want to try again. The key wouldnt turn. WHAT THE HEC?! Oh, put in the clutch. It keeps dying and not moving!? Oh, the E-brake was on. Yeah, it was a wonderful start. I decide to make my life a little easier and run to Jamba. (what? I gave up sugar??) I did pretty well for the most part for having learned 1 1/2 years ago.

At this point Im really good at driving on streets, parking lots just irritate me. Anyways, I go visit my friend from my college days Quinette who was working at Nordstroms Rack. Shes amazing and I cant figure out why I havent seen more of her. I bought the cutest pair of purple heels there :) and then headed down to Draper to play with Anna while she was at work. While there I consumed 2 bottles of green tea stuff. Pretty good. Not the best, but I can already feel the goodness from it. So maybe I'll invest some cash into that... probably not though.

Basically Utah was fun. We went shopping and I bought a super cute shirt! Then we had a reception, wal mart fun, and I headed home about 915. Getting home just before midnight.

Where did February go...?!

Well, February was pretty much a month of life changing decisions!! A lot happened that totally changed my life. In December I decided that I needed to go back to school. It was a hard decision for sure. I knew that I didn't want to go back to BYU-Idaho. Its just not the place for me. I had reluctantly accepted ISU as they have a campus in IF and I could live at home and keep my job.

Then life changed drastically. I started dreading going to work and my personal life fell apart. On one particularly difficult day Jace randomly text me and offered an option that I hadn't even considered. Before I go on I really need to thank Jace for texting me. It really meant and means a lot. Back to the story- he said that I should move to Cedar and go to school at SUU. What?! I'm not stuck in Idaho!? I called my mom later that day to talk about it and just honestly thought a lot about doing it. I mean, I've always wanted to go down there and I needed a definite change in my life- so why not go somewhere where I'd still have family behind me and yet is completely new?

The next night I checked the website out. I've given up on majoring in PolySci as there aren't really jobs in that field unless you want to go onto some sort of a masters program- which lets face it, I don't see myself doing. They only offer PolySci criminal justice... not a huge selling point. But I was looking at other majors and I've been toying with the idea of Business Marketing and Communications-Public Relations. These both offer a large range of jobs inside of the political sphere and I am interested in both. At this point I'm siding on PR as I'm really good relating to people and working with them. On Sunday I met with my branch president to talk about some other things and told him what I have been thinking and he was definitely supportive.

Monday I was looking around the website again and just did it and applied. The next day I sent in all the transcripts and well... I got in! So now all I need is a job along with millions other Americans but I'm really optimistic! (On an honest note, I'm scared out of my mind! I love living with my parents -that's right, I'm almost 21 and ADORE living at home... which makes me want to move that much more, cause, what normal 21 yr old loves living at home??)

So life got really crazy there for awhile and I put aside a lot. One of those things was getting fit. HAHA! If you couldn't tell by my above story- I got depressed. Like worse than normal. I didn't really leave my house except for work and was completely ok with not talking to anyone and just sleeping for days on end. So my work out routine died a sad terrible death. I think I gained 10lbs during this time. I know, bad- very bad. Its been bothering me that I haven't wanted to work out like at all. I usually have some sort of desire to go, but I had none. Last Friday I forced myself in. Then on Saturday I designed a plan that I should be able to maintain.

During breaks at work I read a lot of women's health magazines or ones like it (as they all have weight-loss guidelines) and pretty much any TV or radio show you'll hear something about loosing weight. I heard one Sunday driving back from Utah that the reason "The Biggest Loser" contestants lose weight is because when they work out, its a hard-core work out where they are constantly pushing themselves for a long period of time this increases their calorie burn. Also, I cant deny myself too too much. I'm going to crave crappy food and if I don't allow myself some of it I will binge and fail. So here's the plan (as of today):

No sugar (at least that I can help, so no candy or my favorite- fruity drinks)
Keep carbs at a minimum (everything has carbs just keep in mind how many I'm eating)
LOTS AND LOTS OF WATER (I've been dehydrated since birth...)
Protein (that's right folks, I don't eat protein very much. my family calls me the vegetarian)
Work out everyday (which usually means 11:30 at night :) I love 24 hour fitness)
No work outs on Sunday
SUNDAY IS FREE DAY! (so I'm not constantly denying myself, and I'll be able to eat dinner with the family)

AND! I have an award system... possibly the best part about this... other than getting fit...
10lbs: Pedicure at a beauty college. Cheaper and they're life changing.
20lbs: Complete hair dye. It's a surprise what I want done, but its going to be a professional job.
30lbs: A new Vickies bra, lets face it... mine wont fit anymore.
40lbs: I have always wanted a pair of "hooker boots" you know, knee high, stiletto heels... yeah. I have a hard enough time finding shoes that fit my abnormally high arches but then you throw in fat calves and its impossible to find boots. Since I'll be smaller they wont be so hard to find, and I'm not capping how much I'll spend. :)
After 40lbs I'll evaluate if I want to lose more and then create more awards, yay!!

Mom and I went shopping and bought some stuff- lots of yogurt, cheese, some sandwich meat, veggies, meat... okay so I don't have a lot of variety in what I eat. I've had steak twice this week... more water than I've ever had in my life (combined) and lots of yogurt. My post-work out binge. Work outs have been awesome. On Saturday I jogged 2 miles! Something I have never done in my whole life or even have considered attempted, I don't know, it just happened. Monday I did it again, this time my muscles protested a bit more which makes me happy- I must be doing something right. I've been doing some weight training as well but my upper body strength is that of lifting little kids up and that's it. Its pretty pathetic. Last night I was just trying different machines and was constantly changing the weights to 10lbs. Go me.

At this point I'm focusing on me. Not letting other peoples lives influence me, who I am, or what I want. It's time that I stop taking care of everyone around me and take care of myself. Its going to be hard but I know that I can do it.

Oh January...

So it just donned on me today... January is almost over! Where did the time go?! It honestly seems like yesterday I was just spending the day/night with friends celebrating New Years. Geeze, what a crazy month.

Lets see, a couple of Fridays ago Chad and I went to Pocatello to see My Bloody Valentine in 3D (since its the nearest 3D theater). We left around 3 (since its 1 1/2 hours south of Rexburg) and went to the 5:10 showing. We checked rotton tomatoes and it gave it a 5, so we thought it would be an AMAZING movie right?! It was R because of gore (slasher movie right?) and nudity. Usually this means some random boobs flopping around which you can easily avoid watchig. It was a classic slasher movie. Meaningless murders with hardly any plot. About 30 minutes into it though... theres about (I'm not kidding) 10 minutes of a girl running around completely naked. And the producers didnt hide anything. Yeah, so we walked out and asked for our money back. Well, the production company has a strict, "No cash back policy." Ha, so they KNEW people would walk out- right? So they gave us comp. tickets. What are we going to do with comp tickets to a theater in Pocatello?! Luckily I was able to sale them to a guy at work who wanted to see the movie; or else we would have been out $9 each. But the worst thing was, was that there was a family with kids around 12 in there. What are these parents thinking?!

Then we went to IHOP and waited 45 minutes for a Viva La French Toast- which we shared. AND the server was incredibly awkward. AND one of the other servers was trying to talk his way into hanging out with us for the night. Just a few reasons why I hate pocky.

After that we went to his sisters house just to say hi. His niece's name is Brooklynn and shes completely adorable (must run with the name). Heres a funny little tid-bit for ya. His sister was trying to figure out a name for her, and she thought, well, shes going to dance, so what name would look pretty on a jacket? and the name was Brooklynn. You know, all cursivey and such. Made me laugh.

That weekend I got this stupid stomach virus. I wont go into detail (your welcome) but basically I slept for about 70% of Saturday and Sunday, had stomach cramps (comparable to PMS cramps- the worst I've ever had) and lots of running to the bathroom- and like 2 1/2 of those HUGE gatorades, and a few crackers. I lost like... 8 pounds in 2 days. I vowed never to eat again... haha.

On Monday I was tired of being home so I forced myself out of the house. Of course I ended up in Rexburg but most of my friends were doing homework that they've procrastinated doing for well over a week (mind you, this was like the 2nd or 3rd week of class). So it was just Chad and me again. He wanted to go somewhere pretty and since I had never been to Teton/Jackson we made a road trip!

We got back pretty early so we decided to get a Red Box... ha. What a joke. There arent enough red boxes in Rexburg to supply the college students. So we ended up back at his apartment and watched Redemption (I think thats what its called) of 24. Basically its a 2 hour pre-movie thing to this seasons 24.

Let me be clear. I have had an aversion to 24 since the first episode. All I hear about is how amazing it is and the fans are well... fanatical. So, I've never watched it- until MLK day. The next week I watched the first 5 or so episodes of this season, and cant wait to watch todays new one.

I went shopping on... Tuesday?? with my friend Brett. Im so lame, after about an hour Im done anymore. What happened to my shop-o-holic-ism?

This last Saturday I had some fun! My friend Kristy and I went to this new restaraunt on the pier called Iggys. When we walked in I couldnt help but feel a slight twinge of recognition... like I had been there before. Only after I sat down did I realize, drrrr... whenever the family goes to Logan/Tremonton and we get dinner we usually end up in Logan at Iggys. I love their calzones. MMmmmmMmm. Afterwards we went to see Inkheart. Basically, I was kinda having a rough day but after I saw that movie, I was completely happy. It was so so so good. Im in love with Brendan Fraser. It had enough explosions to make the fellas happy, enough drama for the ladies, really good eye candy ;), and really good plot. It wasn't hockey or anything and just amazed me the entire way through.

So there you have it. This is pretty much what my life consists of outside of working all the time.


Waiting for the movie to start, looking sexy in our 3D glasses


At the Teton Dam. Again, we look sexy. (And Chelsea, I am indeed wearing the DKNY shirt I bought of ya!)


THE PRETTY TETONS! I have a pretty hilarious video of this too. Check out my windshield! What can I say, I live in Idaho- its a sin not to have a crack/chip in it.


No, this is not an engagement photo. We both just look super sexy.


This one isnt as blurry as the other one; and its cute too.

And on a "lets not start family rumors" note; Chad and I are not dating. We're just really close friends. Im still 100% single and loving it!

UPDATE!

So apparently... I seriously need to update this a little bit more often. But honestly my life is kinda boring. I work a lot and I play a lot... mostly in Rexburg which happens to be 45 minutes away from my house. Here are some awesome pictures!!!



My twin cousin Anna and I goofing around in Logan.



My best friend Chad and I at temple square... we drove down and back on the first day it snowed... brilliant I know right.

Proposition 8

I know its all over and done with, but I figured I'd post this because of the enjoyment that I received when I watched it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-Kl2T3bQm4

I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. :)

woah...

woah. so tonight i get on my facebook account and i see that an old YW leader made a group about leaving the mormon church. i finally got to know what happened and why she left, but in doing i saw MORE facebook groups about how to, why, and support groups. im honestly shocked right now. the church is the reason why im still here. i love the gospel and the truths that it brings. it hurts to have someone who taught me many of these truths turn her back on and leave it all. i know its true- all of it. i love this woman because of what she taught and how she affected my life however, its hard not to look at her and think of all the wonderful things that she has given up. anyways, i suppose my eyes have been opened and my testimony tested and strengthened by this experience.