Well, February was pretty much a month of life changing decisions!! A lot happened that totally changed my life. In December I decided that I needed to go back to school. It was a hard decision for sure. I knew that I didn't want to go back to BYU-Idaho. Its just not the place for me. I had reluctantly accepted ISU as they have a campus in IF and I could live at home and keep my job.
Then life changed drastically. I started dreading going to work and my personal life fell apart. On one particularly difficult day Jace randomly text me and offered an option that I hadn't even considered. Before I go on I really need to thank Jace for texting me. It really meant and means a lot. Back to the story- he said that I should move to Cedar and go to school at SUU. What?! I'm not stuck in Idaho!? I called my mom later that day to talk about it and just honestly thought a lot about doing it. I mean, I've always wanted to go down there and I needed a definite change in my life- so why not go somewhere where I'd still have family behind me and yet is completely new?
The next night I checked the website out. I've given up on majoring in PolySci as there aren't really jobs in that field unless you want to go onto some sort of a masters program- which lets face it, I don't see myself doing. They only offer PolySci criminal justice... not a huge selling point. But I was looking at other majors and I've been toying with the idea of Business Marketing and Communications-Public Relations. These both offer a large range of jobs inside of the political sphere and I am interested in both. At this point I'm siding on PR as I'm really good relating to people and working with them. On Sunday I met with my branch president to talk about some other things and told him what I have been thinking and he was definitely supportive.
Monday I was looking around the website again and just did it and applied. The next day I sent in all the transcripts and well... I got in! So now all I need is a job along with millions other Americans but I'm really optimistic! (On an honest note, I'm scared out of my mind! I love living with my parents -that's right, I'm almost 21 and ADORE living at home... which makes me want to move that much more, cause, what normal 21 yr old loves living at home??)
So life got really crazy there for awhile and I put aside a lot. One of those things was getting fit. HAHA! If you couldn't tell by my above story- I got depressed. Like worse than normal. I didn't really leave my house except for work and was completely ok with not talking to anyone and just sleeping for days on end. So my work out routine died a sad terrible death. I think I gained 10lbs during this time. I know, bad- very bad. Its been bothering me that I haven't wanted to work out like at all. I usually have some sort of desire to go, but I had none. Last Friday I forced myself in. Then on Saturday I designed a plan that I should be able to maintain.
During breaks at work I read a lot of women's health magazines or ones like it (as they all have weight-loss guidelines) and pretty much any TV or radio show you'll hear something about loosing weight. I heard one Sunday driving back from Utah that the reason "The Biggest Loser" contestants lose weight is because when they work out, its a hard-core work out where they are constantly pushing themselves for a long period of time this increases their calorie burn. Also, I cant deny myself too too much. I'm going to crave crappy food and if I don't allow myself some of it I will binge and fail. So here's the plan (as of today):
No sugar (at least that I can help, so no candy or my favorite- fruity drinks)
Keep carbs at a minimum (everything has carbs just keep in mind how many I'm eating)
LOTS AND LOTS OF WATER (I've been dehydrated since birth...)
Protein (that's right folks, I don't eat protein very much. my family calls me the vegetarian)
Work out everyday (which usually means 11:30 at night :) I love 24 hour fitness)
No work outs on Sunday
SUNDAY IS FREE DAY! (so I'm not constantly denying myself, and I'll be able to eat dinner with the family)
AND! I have an award system... possibly the best part about this... other than getting fit...
10lbs: Pedicure at a beauty college. Cheaper and they're life changing.
20lbs: Complete hair dye. It's a surprise what I want done, but its going to be a professional job.
30lbs: A new Vickies bra, lets face it... mine wont fit anymore.
40lbs: I have always wanted a pair of "hooker boots" you know, knee high, stiletto heels... yeah. I have a hard enough time finding shoes that fit my abnormally high arches but then you throw in fat calves and its impossible to find boots. Since I'll be smaller they wont be so hard to find, and I'm not capping how much I'll spend. :)
After 40lbs I'll evaluate if I want to lose more and then create more awards, yay!!
Mom and I went shopping and bought some stuff- lots of yogurt, cheese, some sandwich meat, veggies, meat... okay so I don't have a lot of variety in what I eat. I've had steak twice this week... more water than I've ever had in my life (combined) and lots of yogurt. My post-work out binge. Work outs have been awesome. On Saturday I jogged 2 miles! Something I have never done in my whole life or even have considered attempted, I don't know, it just happened. Monday I did it again, this time my muscles protested a bit more which makes me happy- I must be doing something right. I've been doing some weight training as well but my upper body strength is that of lifting little kids up and that's it. Its pretty pathetic. Last night I was just trying different machines and was constantly changing the weights to 10lbs. Go me.
At this point I'm focusing on me. Not letting other peoples lives influence me, who I am, or what I want. It's time that I stop taking care of everyone around me and take care of myself. Its going to be hard but I know that I can do it.